NOSTALGIASM

I'm a total ignorant of College life. You know why? Because first, i was shocked (and still perhaps I am) of the culture. On how teachers train collgege students, on how my classmates are, everything that i'm not used to encounter.

And because of that shock, i got sick. maybe one of the reasons is, i'm so stressed. i feel so pressured! and i'd never cared about my health and had been a rebel of eating and doing things that are not supposed to be eaten. so what had happened to me?

i already had my first absent on the very first week of the class. i'm gonna tell you alright? here's what happened, on a Tuesday night, i saw a small pack of a chocolate on the freezer ( i won't tell the brand but it's a Toblerone). it was a pasalubong from my tita from abroad and since i love chokolates, i ate one. but to my surprise, my coughs started to occur. i can't believe that even a a little chocolate would cause my throat to be itchy. the next morning, i asked my mom to buy me a medicine for my cough. she gave me a medicine but it cause me another sickness again. i got a flu right after the 15 minutes that i took it. haizt! i got a two problems then. my mom bought me a paracetamol for my flu and still i continue taking the capsule for my cough. haha! and here's the next happening, while taking up on the stairs for my first subject, i can't explain why i felt a difficulty in breathing. even just a simple step would cause me to catch up a breath. then i found out that i already have rashes on my arms. and it was very itchy. i knew that from the first place, i can't take paracetamol medicines anymore because i'm allergic to it. but i took the risk 'coz i had hopes that my flu would be better abd that my allergy won't attack. but obviously, i didn't succeeded.




at noon, we were heading for our PE class. and our class is about dancing the Jai HO song. i thought that i could stand what i feel. but as we repeat the steps over and over, there i felt so much exhaustion. i was already hyperventilating! but i can't find myself asking my teacher to excuse me for a while. i don't have the guts. i stll proceed on dancing even though i'm already on the state of trying my hardest to get every breath.

have you experience holding your breath under water? that's how i felt that day. i felt like i'm drowning. i can't breathe. it took me maybe 3 secs to have another breath. after that PE, i went home to change my shirt 'coz i thought that's the reason why i'm losing my breath and why my cough is still on. but you know what? every walk that i'm pursuing to do with my best, i felt like i would die or collapsed at any moment. that i would be rushed to the emergency room and be the talk of the university.

when i got home, my mom insisted to take me to the hospital to have a check-up. she told me that i looked at my worst. though i am worried that i could be absent, i still go to the hosptal withmy mom, 'coz i also know that i won't stand it anymore if i head back to school again. my rashes got worsen. they're now on my face! and i can't breath easy. it's worse than ever! i felt like i could die on the spot!

when my lab test result was given, it showed there that i have so much platelet counts. it's above average. my white blood cells are also very high. almost half of the normal WBC count. we were reffered to the only Allercologist in the city the next 2 days and the doctor said that i should have been admitted on the same day that i had my check-up. i have whizzings ( it's like a singing tone inside my lungs) when he checked me with his stethoscope. he told me that my airways became smaller. that's the reason why i can't breathe. and at any moment, i could die if it won't be treated. he suggested to have me admitted because it would be too risky if i would stay home. my airways might be blocked while i am sleeping. and that frightened me!

i can't imagine that, that allergy that i simple thought was nothing, would cause me to death! the doctor said that one month ago, his co-doctor died beause of the same illness that i have. tsk! tsk! that's hilarious!




and so, my mom took me to the hospital. i went first to the admitting section. at first i was scared. to my knowledge, i've never been dextrosed since birth. and i am worried about the pain. hehe! and believe me, masakit talaga siya. haha! i was admitted there for 3 days. i had been using nebulizer. have been injected several times. and took several medicines for my allergy. the whole hospital thing has itsadvantages and disadvantaes. the advantage is, i'm treated like a baby! hehe that's whta i love about it. lolz!

so, i now that i am out, i would be more careful next time. i would take medicines in time. i would avoid the restricted foods. i would not pressure myself so much anymore. and i would manage my time well so that i won't have to deal with too much stress anymore. hai nalang! i have to do those things so that i could attend classes. so that i my life won't be in a risk anymore. and so that i won't pay another hospital bill anymore for my admission fees.

so guys, be watchful of your health. MAHAL MAGKASAKIT TALAGA. and it's epidemic season. may viruses are spreading in and out of the country. and don't be rebelliuos like me. hehe

All this time, I've been thinking if I am really ready for facing the new phase of my life as as student. I usually think about how would I respond to the culture shock that my friends described when they became college. I'm worried about how would I accept more responsibilities in terms of my studies - 'coz actually, I'm a lazy studier! haha though I was still able to get high grades. But I know this time would be different. There will be more assignments, reports in front the new strange looking classmates, adjusting to my unwanted schedule, and studying thicker examination coverage.

7.30 am

Me and my buddy, Kim, went to our new school. we ought to attend our OrSem (orientation seminar). I was excited then 'coz I know, I will meet different faces and that event will start my college life and answer most of my questions about it.

And there I see the printed papers hanged on a certain wall, I thought it was just about notices or what, but hey, our block section was actually listed there! haha good thing that I thought of staring at it.

around 8-9:00 am

I'd finally seen the bunch of freshies gathered in the covered court. Shuckz! Our number was like twice the population of my former school! I was like astound to see that number of people as large as that belonging to one school. hehe

After the blah-blah-blahs we proceeded to our designated rooms. I belong to block section A1 so we went to the HR building. From there, I have already criticized my well, no so-called new classmates. Most of them are girls. and I must admit, I'm disappointed 'coz there's no cute guy in our section! hahaha!

As I observe the girls, they're very confident. Like, I feel O.P (out of place) with the way they walk, how they look and their strong personas. I'm like being envious at that point. hehe

We had some activities there including the usual stuff, introducing our own names. But this time, it's different. more exciting yet i can't imagine myself doing that stupidity in front of strangers. hehe... Have you already spelled your name using your booty? Like forming letters with shaking it? haha I've done that! When i watched my classmates, some of them are funny. Some of them were like under the influence of alcohol lol! just kidding. Some of them are really shy. some of them are good in shaking those behinds (i wish i belong to that). But honestly, of all that shaking thing, I didn't get the letters. hehe maybe i was just not paying attention (my usual habit).


But you know what? I think, I belong to one of the best groups of freshmen. 'coz we're all like leading the class. We're not like the others who were pointing each other to lead the group. And I'm amazed that somehow, I could now have proxies in leading the class (which i am tired of doing all these years).

My first impression of my class was, it will be competitive in terms of school programs and contests. And I like that idea. however, I know that it would be also a lot hard for me to adjust in my new environment. Just like what our TNT kiddingly said, "WELCOME TO HELL!" haha! She got us on that. Though it's more like an hyperbole, I know that somehow, she's telling the truth.

hehe...

I can now proclaim myself as a CERTIFIED COLLEGE STUDENT. haizt!


Things would be a lot different shifting from an ordinary high school girl to a new life of college woman.

WELCOME TO HELL... hahaha!

just as when i finished paying the cashier at a drugstore, i thought of picking up my cellphone from my bag to check if there's a new message. and to my surprise, i can't find it -or should i say them- on the outside pocket of my sling bag! i've searched for them inside my bag but i found nothing.

i was just so frustrated, devastated and mad at myself for being so irresponsible (again) on keeping my valuable things secure! it won't be a big deal if it was only my own cellphone which had been stolen. but the other phone, was my brother's. i just borrowed it but then, i lost it. damn! all i could remember was a tall girl standing right next to me whom i thought is also a customer. i can't remember her face anymore and i'm not also sure if she was really the one who took my phones. but i know that even if i caught her, she would deny it and she might have already passed the phones to her accomplices.

this is already the third time that i lost my cellphone. probably, i was born that reckless and stupid. haizt!

my problem now is how would i return my bro's phone. the same quality and features. next time, i must. i must be careful. i must not be stupid and careless anymore.

i am such a big-damn-stupid!