NOSTALGIASM

I'm a total ignorant of College life. You know why? Because first, i was shocked (and still perhaps I am) of the culture. On how teachers train collgege students, on how my classmates are, everything that i'm not used to encounter.

And because of that shock, i got sick. maybe one of the reasons is, i'm so stressed. i feel so pressured! and i'd never cared about my health and had been a rebel of eating and doing things that are not supposed to be eaten. so what had happened to me?

i already had my first absent on the very first week of the class. i'm gonna tell you alright? here's what happened, on a Tuesday night, i saw a small pack of a chocolate on the freezer ( i won't tell the brand but it's a Toblerone). it was a pasalubong from my tita from abroad and since i love chokolates, i ate one. but to my surprise, my coughs started to occur. i can't believe that even a a little chocolate would cause my throat to be itchy. the next morning, i asked my mom to buy me a medicine for my cough. she gave me a medicine but it cause me another sickness again. i got a flu right after the 15 minutes that i took it. haizt! i got a two problems then. my mom bought me a paracetamol for my flu and still i continue taking the capsule for my cough. haha! and here's the next happening, while taking up on the stairs for my first subject, i can't explain why i felt a difficulty in breathing. even just a simple step would cause me to catch up a breath. then i found out that i already have rashes on my arms. and it was very itchy. i knew that from the first place, i can't take paracetamol medicines anymore because i'm allergic to it. but i took the risk 'coz i had hopes that my flu would be better abd that my allergy won't attack. but obviously, i didn't succeeded.




at noon, we were heading for our PE class. and our class is about dancing the Jai HO song. i thought that i could stand what i feel. but as we repeat the steps over and over, there i felt so much exhaustion. i was already hyperventilating! but i can't find myself asking my teacher to excuse me for a while. i don't have the guts. i stll proceed on dancing even though i'm already on the state of trying my hardest to get every breath.

have you experience holding your breath under water? that's how i felt that day. i felt like i'm drowning. i can't breathe. it took me maybe 3 secs to have another breath. after that PE, i went home to change my shirt 'coz i thought that's the reason why i'm losing my breath and why my cough is still on. but you know what? every walk that i'm pursuing to do with my best, i felt like i would die or collapsed at any moment. that i would be rushed to the emergency room and be the talk of the university.

when i got home, my mom insisted to take me to the hospital to have a check-up. she told me that i looked at my worst. though i am worried that i could be absent, i still go to the hosptal withmy mom, 'coz i also know that i won't stand it anymore if i head back to school again. my rashes got worsen. they're now on my face! and i can't breath easy. it's worse than ever! i felt like i could die on the spot!

when my lab test result was given, it showed there that i have so much platelet counts. it's above average. my white blood cells are also very high. almost half of the normal WBC count. we were reffered to the only Allercologist in the city the next 2 days and the doctor said that i should have been admitted on the same day that i had my check-up. i have whizzings ( it's like a singing tone inside my lungs) when he checked me with his stethoscope. he told me that my airways became smaller. that's the reason why i can't breathe. and at any moment, i could die if it won't be treated. he suggested to have me admitted because it would be too risky if i would stay home. my airways might be blocked while i am sleeping. and that frightened me!

i can't imagine that, that allergy that i simple thought was nothing, would cause me to death! the doctor said that one month ago, his co-doctor died beause of the same illness that i have. tsk! tsk! that's hilarious!




and so, my mom took me to the hospital. i went first to the admitting section. at first i was scared. to my knowledge, i've never been dextrosed since birth. and i am worried about the pain. hehe! and believe me, masakit talaga siya. haha! i was admitted there for 3 days. i had been using nebulizer. have been injected several times. and took several medicines for my allergy. the whole hospital thing has itsadvantages and disadvantaes. the advantage is, i'm treated like a baby! hehe that's whta i love about it. lolz!

so, i now that i am out, i would be more careful next time. i would take medicines in time. i would avoid the restricted foods. i would not pressure myself so much anymore. and i would manage my time well so that i won't have to deal with too much stress anymore. hai nalang! i have to do those things so that i could attend classes. so that i my life won't be in a risk anymore. and so that i won't pay another hospital bill anymore for my admission fees.

so guys, be watchful of your health. MAHAL MAGKASAKIT TALAGA. and it's epidemic season. may viruses are spreading in and out of the country. and don't be rebelliuos like me. hehe